Leaving my family, flying to the other side of the world, to i don't know, find myself. Does there have to be a reason to pack up and leave. Sure there does, there are other people involved they need to understand, i need to understand. I have two gorgeous kids which i adore and partner which i love and admire. But still i need to stretch myself rekindle that little flame and make it a fire. Looking back i have been living in a bubble my sole focus raising and providing for my kids and building a relationship with stephen which i can be proud of. If i continue on this path i will combust and i think it is a lot closer than i realise.
Who am i who do i want to be, what have i learnt from the past. I am hoping i can have some time to explore these questions, this is the reason for this sudden break in the routine of what we call life.
Timing of this could not have been more perfect, from the outside it might not seem so, with the recent departure of stephens mother to the next level, business is thriving and two angels at home who will need to have time away from school. So you could possible see the negitives but i refuse to, i see only the benefit to all involved and the amazing learning which will come of this for all. Freaking out is something which i find hard to over come, i have been focusing on the conscious, bringing from the uncounscious allowing a more vocal voice in my mind to allow events and happening to show me the path i need to travel.
To be inspired to be accepted, by myself.......
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